This is my second child,but I don't recall?

Being this sensitive when my last child moved and kicked me.. With this pregnancy I am severe high risk living in the hospital over 5months and can't leave till after he comes April 8th, I have lots of extra time on my hands with my lil boy here, I read to him and we listen to my gospel mp3 player together. He is so active rarely still for more than two minutes at any given time. I just get emotional sometimes teary eyed when he is just moving all over the place. I rarely miss the opportunity to grab my belly to feel him as he moves my belly around, like it is so exciting to me and I get angry because his father isn't here to go threw this with me, like he is missing out on so much, and he isn't even born yet? Am I being unrealistic and expecting to much from the Dad? He claims he will be here when the baby comes, but isn't he already missing out? He clearly has personality already, I know what foods make him move and more hyper than usual, and that dancing alone in my room mellows him down. He also doesn't like having anything or anyone putting pressure on my bell. My 10yr. old was here and I snuggled up to her where her was in my belly and her brother just got to kicking the crap out of her , she was like that's so cool and rolled over to place her hand there instead of her rear.These times are lost after birth, so do I have the right to be angry/ upset he is missing these months?